I'd like to say that I'm growing as a person, but lately I've been feeling more like I'm shrinking. I'm feeling a need to start over on many, many levels. And when I can't control something, I change what I can. When I was young, this usually meant rearranging a mass amount of furniture in my room. Alas, I don't have that much furniture to move in my house. So, I've been eyeing buying new furniture.
The flooring folks, this time from Flooring America near Meijer (they had the gray laminate I was hoping for) come to install on November 22. The week after, I'll (hopefully) be dropping X-man off at the Ikea kids room on a Tuesday and running around picking up items for my new room. Maybe a fuzzy rug, a small desk, etc. All the little stuff that I can fit in the car with him in his car seat. Tomorrow, I get to call the painters and get on their schedule.
But I've also been looking at new kitchen tables. I want a 60"x60" light wood table that will seat two small benches and 4 chairs in my kitchen. I'd also love a new light wood table in my dining room. I keep changing the house, because I feel helpless to change other parts of my life. And yet, I know, that sooner or later, the change is going to come, whether I like it or not.
People have a way of evolving that way...