Looseyfur likes the drama-free zone

I am guilty. I admit it. And I'm not proud of it. I'm guilty of passing judgment on fellow parents, when I have no right too. Because I've made assumptions that other parents' lives are better than mine, that because their body or their faces are a certain way they must be having a better time of it out in the world... and I know this is bullshit. 

But I also know where it comes from -- my own insecurities created by a long history of fucked up cultural assumptions and being told over and over (by the people who are supposed to support you the most) that I can't do something because of A, B or C. 

I look too much into people's comments. I think too much. I create drama where there wasn't drama before, when I know for a fact that I don't have time for drama. Life gives me enough without me needing to make shit up on my own.

(Ah, clarity after two beers at bookclub.) 

This isn't to say that I'm not allowed my opinions. I'm just saying I want to keep my laid back, low maintenance ways. This all comes up because I was reading a message board for my other Meetup.com online group for Organizers of parent groups from around the world before going to bookclub.  It's got a message board FILLED with membership drama. And I'm scared to death that at some point down the road the crazy stuff I've been reading about will happen in my cozy little CARE group. Who knows? Maybe it already has. Maybe there are people otu there seething and I don't know it. But for right now... 

I am so happy. I  had a fabulous time tonight at book club. I enjoyed my old and my new friends. It was perfect for me. 

I want to continue to enjoy everyone as much as I did tonight talking about our crazy fat girl, postpartum depression suffering, hanging with the stars, entertainment columnist heroine... until the evening descended into a variety of side discussions about toddler eating issues, getting rid of the pacifier, work schedules and my favorite, planning a meet up of "adult items."

(How that one got started, I'm not sure. I just know that somehow I was confused (thinking maybe someone was talking about having a bachelorette party or something like that where those things sometimes happen.) Then I realized it was something being advocated on the calendar and, yeah, I blushed. 

I had a great night out. I really needed it. It's getting me so much closer to Friday when Joel comes home. Thank you friends for all the drama-free fun tonight.